Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Why I Love and Hate Milestones

One of the coolest things about being a parent is watching your child grow and learn. It's fascinating to watch the progression of this person from a helpless little thing who can do nothing but sleep, cry and poop (albeit, he was very good at two of those things) to this person who crawls and stands and says Mama and Dada.

The flip side of this is that meeting milestones messes with babies' sleep. Now from my older posts, it's clear that I don't do well when Jack doesn't sleep. I can handle a day or two of bad sleep, but when it starts to stretch into a week or two, I get a little stressed.

And then there's chasing after the boy during diaper changes. If I can get him to stay still long enough for a diaper change, forget changing his clothes or buttoning his onesie. That usually involves me crawling after him trying to line up buttons while he makes his escape.

All in all, I'm at the point I just want him to walk already so we can get this milestone under our belt and get back to a regular sleep routine.

Saturday, September 24, 2011

I'm Back

So it's been about a month since my last post. I actually thought it had been longer, so I have less blogger guilt now.

I do have some massive mommy guilt going on though.

While we were on vacation in South Carolina, my baby fell off the bed. Thankfully he landed on a pillow. Then two weeks later, he fell off the bed again...no pillow that time. I felt terrible. I felt worse the second time because it was totally my fault. And my little guy ended up with a bruise over his eye.

Plus I'm back at work now. My mother and mother in law split babysitting until my husband gets home. Jack is great for his grandmothers, but he likes to hassle his father. It makes me so sad that he's upset at bedtime and I can't be here to comfort him.

My only comfort is that it's only two days a week. I try to tell myself that it will improve the daddy and son bond, and honestly, the baby doesn't seem too traumatized by any of it. I think it's hardest on me.

Either way, we don't have much choice...and the paycheck is nice.